Wow, I really forgot about you for a good long time didn't I? Let a whole year (and then some) go by without a word. Of course, since I have no followers, no one would have really noticed. Still, since I'm the one that started this whole blog thing, you'd think I'd have a little more responsibility towards my own creation. Of course, if you knew me as well as I knew me, you wouldn't be surprised at how I could just let something I started fade into obscurity. Well, further obscurity, since as I already mentioned, I have no followers.
But, it's a time for new beginnings (for about the third, or fourth, or fifth time). It looks like Spring is finally here in more than name only. I've started saving money for some rainy day where I just can't stand it anymore and need to go on vacation. I'm trying to buy a house, although as it turns out I'm just as picky about houses as I am about men. And, I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel for my book. Of course, that means I still have to revise and edit, which is a whole other chore I can't even begin to contemplate. But, at least I'll be able to say I finished something. Something I wanted to do. That's more than I've ever been able to say before.
So, I guess the real question is whether I'm happy or sad. It all usually comes down to that. Oh, there are elements to happiness and sadness. A bunch of other descriptors of emotion that run the gamut between the lowest, flat out depression to the highest, soaring elation. Most of us that are lucky will rest somewhere in the middle, maybe finding that accidentally fall on the side of happiness without even knowing it. And I guess that's how it should be. The truth is I don't really know where I fall. I do know that I happened to be walking outside yesterday and noticed how blue the sky was and how nice the sunlight felt. The world seemed a little bigger and I was a little further outside of my own hear. And, it was pretty good.
It'd be nice to feel that way more often. Maybe if I can find my way outside into the sun once in a while, I can get it back.